Voices.

I find that my mind speaks often in ways that even I cannot understand.
Feelings of inadequacy take over and I cannot breathe.
Fear and judgement of my own emotions begin to choke me,
And I have to fight them even harder. Stuff them down. Make them quiet.

But they persist. Stifling me. Suffocating.

They tell me I am worthless.
They tell me I am undeserving.
They tell me I am a fraud.

But I will fight. I will not be silenced.

They will not win.
For I will prevail, at all cost.
My truth speaks louder than they do.
My passion further ignites my strength.

The depths of my being are engulfed in love, power, and hope.
Despite the voices that try to take me out. Battling the darkness I seek the light.
I strive for beauty and inner workings of things only felt by the heart.
I will not be so easily fooled. My truth speaks loudest. My truth speaks pure.

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